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Sat, 21 Apr 2012 13:04:33 -0400

I’m excited for life, the sun makes me so upbeat…I don’t trust it. I’m...

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 18:40:01 -0400

I’m excited for life, the sun makes me so upbeat…I don’t trust it. I’m especially excited for tomorrow, after my babysitting shift tonight it’s good to know there’s something fun round the corner. I’m going into Paradise to get me Scottish cup semi final ticket and then to lunch and drinks with Joe, I don’t know if everything or nothing has changed so it’ll be good to catch up. And I’m working on Saturday, I like money so that’s not too bad. And I’m going to catch up on my sleepy times on Sunday then go for drinks with Jack on Monday as I’m off for the next two weeks. On Wednesday me and Paula are having a lads night out, we’re going to sing karaoke and drink horrid Polish vodka it never ends well for any witnesses but we think we’re brilliant, which is all that matters. All that doesn’t seem too thrilling but I’d much rather go for a few quiet drinks to catch up with people I care about and be so bad at the pub quiz that you get a packet of crisps than go”out out” with people I could live without.

Today I realised I’m a bit of a shit person. Everyone I text or even reach to the...

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 18:25:58 -0400

Today I realised I’m a bit of a shit person. Everyone I text or even reach to the “seeing” stage just gets bored and stops contacting me. Well, most people. I’m terrible at making conversation that doesn’t just flow as I don’t see the point in forcing something that wouldn’t just happen and am a bit of a socially awkward penguin and sometimes forget to co-ordinate my eyes and face and body all at the same time but I suppose however much I sound like a 15 year old girl I guess it just wasn’t meant to happen. I’m just again becoming content with life as it is anyway, I don’t think distractions would be helpful to me stopping being a mentalist or anyone else that could be involved in me being mental. So I’m totally okay with being a bit shite in some people’s eyes, so long as the people I really care for don’t just decide that they’ve had enough of me, that’d just be rude.

An evening spent pretending that we’re just becoming friends,Or this goes any further than going back; I’m not being pessimistic, it’s just you and I were never meant to be.

I’m still not feeling too fantastic and people are expecting me to be nice and social and...

Mon, 19 Mar 2012 18:51:00 -0400

I’m still not feeling too fantastic and people are expecting me to be nice and social and things I generally don’t have much a trouble doing. I just want a wee week off to nap for the first two days then catch up on everything I need to catch up on for the rest. Maybe even catch up with a few people too.

I was working with Craig last night so managed to catch up with him, even though I’ve phoned him at ridiculous times recently during various “crises” and he’s picked up sleepy but still willing to listen each time it’s still good to see him face to face.

I can’t seem to take any of his advice though, can’t seem to be able to have serious conversations though. I can’t tell people to slow .down. I hate how things move so qickly these days, it’s unfair on me and everyone invloved as it’ll never have a happy ending because I don’t know what I want or to expect from people. I don’t think I want to expect anything from people.

I do think I’m rambelling, though. I gotta stop moaning on this.

Six years ago one of the greatest footballers to have ever lived...

Tue, 13 Mar 2012 13:21:37 -0400

Six years ago one of the greatest footballers to have ever lived died.

Jimmy Johnstone was from Viewpark and lived only a few streets away from me and drank in the pub just behind my house so I’ve always known of the person rather than the footballer so can confidently say he is a great a great loss not only to the footballing community but also to my local community, he never used his fame to get anything in life or cashed his name in to get millions, which he could have done. He was just grateful of his chance to play for Glasgow Celtic, the team he adored. That’s the mentality footballers should have. I still remember the day it happened, I was in first year and my school was beside the church where his funeral was heard, I was in home economics first and all the huns in my class were making jokes about his passing, I’ve never been so disgusted in my life. I hated my school and classmates, they were all small minded morons. R.I.P Jinky, you’ll never walk alone.

Everytime I breath it feels like a Dark Rider is stabbing me in the chest, sad times all round....

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 12:54:48 -0400

Everytime I breath it feels like a Dark Rider is stabbing me in the chest, sad times all round. I’m also a total idiot and keep burning bridges and isolating people and just generally being a fool, I don’t even know how to rectify some things…

It’s so strange how one single sentence can change your entire opinion of someone, even if it...

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 04:42:13 -0500

It’s so strange how one single sentence can change your entire opinion of someone, even if it was just an off-hand comment that wasn’t intended to be malicious. I really can’t help but feel like a fool now.

I feel like I’ve been repeatedly stabbed in the back, chest and stomach, which isn’t too...

Fri, 09 Mar 2012 10:43:27 -0500

I feel like I’ve been repeatedly stabbed in the back, chest and stomach, which isn’t too pleasant. I hate being ill but at least it’s the weekend and I don’t have to and won’t be expected to do anything until Monday, silver lining, eh?

I’ve not been feeling well recently so have just been floating about to totally unaware of all...

Wed, 07 Mar 2012 14:28:22 -0500

I’ve not been feeling well recently so have just been floating about to totally unaware of all going ons around me. Even more so than usual, that is. I feel so out the loop with everything but I don’t know whether that’s because I’ve not really been able to catch up with people or I because I no longer know where I stand with some people.

Knowing where I stand is always nice, especially when I know where I want to stand.

I’ve not seen Craig in about a month and even then the last time I seen him we weren’t really able to talk, I’m not used to seeing so little of him and I definitely don’t like it but I can’t seem to muster the energy to send him a text. I always go a wee bit mental when I’ve not been able to moan at him constantly…

"Well once again, I heard one of your commentators say that our title is devalued. The only thing..."

Sat, 03 Mar 2012 09:42:37 -0500

“Well once again, I heard one of your commentators say that our title is devalued. The only thing that devalues the Scottish game is people like him and other people on your channel. I mean really they should come into our dressing room and say that to the players or say it to our supporters. I find it really disrespectful that you give these guys a platform to spill their nonsense on TV.”

- Neil Lennon (via popes11)

I have a Blackberry which should be classed with Hitler, Stalin,...

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 07:52:31 -0500

I have a Blackberry which should be classed with Hitler, Stalin, Attila The Hun, Vlad the Impaler and Harry Redknapp in the “wicked” section of the world. It’s only bonus is the intelligent shuffle on the music player.

I was feeling miserable today, I’ve not been well and had a terrible nights sleep and was feeling all kinds of sorry for myself but I had to go to a stupid chemistry lecture, I need to get two buses there so was listening to music to make it slightly more bearable, every song that was played made me a wee bit more miserable as they reminded me of someone or something that has happened, thinks I don’t ever think about or wonder “what if…” over so when I got off the bus I spent the two hours I was in reflecting and thinking about things, I had came to conclusions about everything that was on my mind and as I walked out I put my phone on shuffle again and The King Blues’ Everything Happens For A Reason came on, don’t dig too deep into the lyrics because I’m not pregnant but you know…everything happens for a reason. That was nice, intelligent shuffle indeed.

Still doesn’t stop it being wicked, though.

Saturday was really good, I’m only just getting around to posting it because I stayed up after...

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 15:28:33 -0500

Saturday was really good, I’m only just getting around to posting it because I stayed up after 10pm and have been catching up on sleep since then, I’m pathetic like that. Jack’s cousin’s band were supporting Bonehead, the original guitarist in Oasis, in Soundwave Studios in Coatbridge. I’d never been there and never expected much as anywhere I have been in Coatbridge is more than a bit of a dive the venue surprised me, it was really small and intimate and had fantastic acoustics. Crafty Bison were first to play, they were really good and would recommend listening them to anyone.

They’ve been together for around three years and it shows. They were tighter than some full time bands that I have seen live and they captivated me with their lyrics and Steven’s voice. I hadn’t heard them before but all the songs felt familiar and relatable, but not in a way that I felt like I’d heard the same song by 40 other bands before them.

Bonehead and his band were alright, I think you can only do so much with a few acoustic guitars and some vocals before it all starts sounding the same. It was lovely to just spend a night out listening to good music with some good company, much better than going “out out” I think anyway. Because Coatbridge is a bit murder for me to get home from at 1 o’clock in the morning I stayed at Paula’s flat, me and Jack went to ASDA to get her pizza and crisps as a thanks for letting me stay before heading to her flat. He walked me there despite his cousin staying like 3 minutes from the venue just to be nice, how kind.

After he left me and Paula spent a good two hours laughing at how hilarious we are then a further half hour arguing over who was going to get to spoon her cat, we’re too creepy for even me to be comfortable with but it works for us…kinda. Not really. But at least we’re each other’s allies.

I'm dead nervous about tonight

Sat, 25 Feb 2012 13:27:37 -0500

and I can’t even drink to make me feel a wee bit better. Ahhh!

I’m dead nervous about today, Celtic are playing Motherwell and despite Celtic being an an...

Sat, 25 Feb 2012 07:17:17 -0500

I’m dead nervous about today, Celtic are playing Motherwell and despite Celtic being an an absolutely outstanding run of play Motherwell have so much to play for.

I was at the Hibs game midweek (stop judging me!) and Motherwell played well, and despite them being at home against a team at the tail end of the league table they really looked like they could do some damage today. Winning for them today would put them even with Rangers* on points second in the table at the end of February which very few people could have predicted could happen in the SPL as soon as it has.

I’m not going, I very rarely get to go to games as it’s just way too expensive for me to do so but I try and never miss watching them, even if that does mean hunching over a laggy stream on my laptop. I enjoyed going to the Motherwell game even though it clashed with Celtic/Dunfermline as it meant I was actually at the ground watching live football, I have always been and always will be a Celtic fan I am only that way because I’m a fan of football, I love watching all kinds of teams play in all kinds of leagues so it’s good to get to a game every so often even if it isn’t your own. It was an end to end game that ended 4-3 to Motherwell and I managed to enjoy it so much more as a neutral than I ever would if it was Celtic playing, I was able to enjoy the play without having miniature mental breakdowns whenever our opponents get into our half or about the end score.

It’s just past 3am. I can never usually stay awake past 10 o’clock never mind 3 in...

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 22:15:25 -0500

It’s just past 3am. I can never usually stay awake past 10 o’clock never mind 3 in the morning. This is crazy and I’m not used to it. I feel dead rubbish had a wee nap in my chemistry lecture and went to bed as soon as I got so am now awake this late, all my effort to get a good routine shattered in one night spent listening to Kate Nash and mourning my imminent death. I sneezed twice today so I’m definitely dying, right? I’ve not had a Kate Nash night for a while and don’t feel as “forever alone” as I usually do during one so that’s fun.

blah blah blah ex boyfriend blah blah blah I'm a bit drunk

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 17:52:19 -0500

It’s my dad’s birthday today so we went to the pub and for a few games of pool. It was the same pub I broke up with Joe in, I finally gave him a wee piece of my mind today so it seemed like a pure…end of an era? topped off by the fact I was sitting in the same chair in the same pub drinking the same drink I was then said era’s demise started. And now I’m home Vincent has found the wee Simba toy he got me for my birthday and is now playfighting with it, he’s never acknowledged it before. Aw I don’t know, I’m putting myself to bed before I type anymore..

No one could ever annoy me as much as I annoy myself. Why do I always lose everything? Why is my...

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 18:31:44 -0500

No one could ever annoy me as much as I annoy myself. Why do I always lose everything? Why is my room so messy? Why does my nap and football commitments take up my entire life? and why oh why am I always so late?

The Daily Record and The Scum’s campaigns to “save Ranges” are disgusting. If it...

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 17:36:22 -0500

The Daily Record and The Scum’s campaigns to “save Ranges” are disgusting. If it was an other company or “celebrity” or member of public that avoided paying so much tax over so many years both papers would crucify them, totally take them to the cleaners. I don’t know how they can feel sympathy towards them or complain that the tax bill will drive them under. It’s their own fault, they’ve stole PAYE from their staff and an estimated £75 million from the public that will more than likely not be paid back. The deserve to die. It’s not at all, as the red tops claim, Whyte’s fault. Sir David Murray was the person that set up offshore bank accounts to pay staff to avoid paying tax, the tax bills were there and unpaid while he was in-charge, he’s not a hero and definitely shouldn’t be able to comment on the Whyte claiming to be disappointed and feeling let down by recent events.

I know I’m a bit late in this but I’ve been in a ice-cream and jelly(tot) induced coma since the news of them going into admin broke.

matervamjebem reblogged this from you and added: Do jelly tots count? Never even thought of...

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 15:04:38 -0500

matervamjebem reblogged this from you and added:

Do jelly tots count? Never even thought of that, made my own jelly as well.

I couldn’t find any other jelly suitable for vegetarians so they are going to have to! Making your own jelly so quite impressive though, show’s you’re truly dedicated to the cause, haha.

ha ha ha ha hahahahahaha

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 11:19:49 -0500

ha ha ha ha hahahahahaha